And it is lovely to be home. This week I have rested. A lot. I have pinned. A lot. I have texted. A LOT. (Thank goodness I switched to Sprint and now have unlimited text or I would be in t.r.o.u.b.l.e.) I have journaled. I have EATEN. Food is still slow, but I am eating more every day. I have to. I have to eat-pain or no pain. I have lost 26 pounds. In just over a month. There are literally no muscles left. I wore a size small skirt today (thank goodness I tend to keep my favorite clothes because now I have a whole new free wardrobe.) I will be looking quite professional for the next few weeks-lots of skirts and dress pants from pre-kids teacher wardrobe. But it is better than yoga pants every day. Just makes me feel better.
So I am better. Next infusion will be next week-not really looking forward to it, but everything is a step closer to health.
The biggest problem I have right now is patience. They said it was going to be a long road back as my body suffered some pretty major trauma, but it is so frustrating that I cannot stand up from a chair without assistance. Basic things like showering. Walking up and down stairs. Opening a dresser drawer. It is all so hard. So exhausting.
But I am getting better. I am home. I am NOT in the hospital.
So my new mantra is I am healing. I am strong. I am getting better. I say it to myself many, many times a day. I write it. I think it. I am trying so hard to be positive on this very, very long road.
My goal this week was on Friday to feel a bit more normal. So I did my hair (ok put it in a pony tail as I am RIDICULOUSLY overdue for a cut.) Put on make-up. First time in three weeks. And took photos. So no, still am not lifting the big camera, but once again so thankful for my iPhone...so here they are 12 on 12 for October (and previous months will come soon too...)
1. My big outing to the doc for blood work. Wearing a skirt that hasn't fit in a long time. 2. Stopped by the pumpkin patch on the way home. 3. Still can't believe how many leaves have fallen. I am still stuck in warm September...not mid October. 4. Another view of my beautiful front tree 5. Front porch decorated beautifully by some very, very, very sweet friends. Makes me so very happy. 6. Gorgeous. Beautiful. Perfect. Thank you friend. So much. 7. Resting again, next to my beautiful flowers from a sweet friend. Note: I have the BEST friends. 8. My fall view today 9. Fall candle 10. My mama made this for me when I had the chicken pox when I was three. How perfect she found it today in the toy box. Thirty-two years old. 11. Me. 12. Opened my computer for the first time in probably three weeks. Longest I have ever gone. Thank goodness for my iPhone and iPad.
I am healing. I am strong. I am getting better.